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 No.5993[Last 50 Posts]

Remember Lizzies it's bad to hold negative emotions since they build up.

 No.5994

Today I was bullied by vocal tics.
In those few past days I had like few of them unlike motor ones.
I'm really starting to get worried since making weird noises is fucked up

I've found some worrying info.
>Chronic motor tic disorder is a condition that involves brief, uncontrollable, spasm-like movements or vocal outbursts (otherwise called phonic tics), but not both. If both a physical tic and vocal outburst are present, the condition is known as Tourette syndrome.

I really hope it's not tourette. Already have social phobia/anxiety and it would be too much for me to handle.
On top of that meds to make the symptoms more bearable would turn me into zombie. Ahhhh fuuuuck
I'm wondering if I should book a visit to psychiatrist asap or just wait a little longer because I have them for 9 days only.
I wouldn't care if it was mild but my arms are literally sore and it's getting worse.

 No.5995

Thank you. I've felt something bad right now. I was looking at the wikipedia page for pettanko, https://es.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pettanko and it mentioned Tainaka Ritsu, so I try to look up a picture of her, find the K-ON! wiki, and it shows her birthdate as August 21, 1991. Jesus hell this makes me feel old. K-ON came on during 2009. She'd be 29 by now. She's older than me by 4 years, so I'd be a freshman when she was in her senior year. It's all just so jarring I guess. It's so weird to see someone older than you in high school. I don't know if I could watch the anime anymore.

My highschool days weren't great. My life right now is pretty bad too. It's not horrible, but I'm not in a good place now and I'm breaching the point of no return. Even if I recover, I'm sure the memories of inadaquacy will haunt me for the rest of my life. I probably wouldn't feel so bad if I were in a better position I guess. I hope to get better soon.

>>5994

I have tourettes. The vocal tics aren't as bad as the motor ticks. I used to put my hands above my head grasp my hands together, and do a weird moan when I was in elementary school. It was bad and loud. I didn't really get teased for it thankfully. My vocal ticks are now just throat noises and no motor ticks. I'm very glad for that. If anyone makes fun of you, you can always shame them for making fun of someone whose brain is different from them and shame them for someone else's disabilities. Never stop thinking that you're not to blame here. Once you stop thinking that, the ticks (and maybe other people) start to get ahold of you. I refuse to take blame and feel no shame. If it's tourettes, do the same.

 No.5996

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I hate being forced into situations or organizations I neveer asked to be apart of. The worst part for me is being told to be grateful for it and say thank you as im kicked around by others so they can feel good about themselves.

 No.5997

Demons

 No.5998

>>5995
>breaching the point of no return.
What do you mean by that?
>memories of inadaquacy will haunt me for the rest of my life.
They lose on power with time and there will be new ones covering previous.
Focusing on past is the silliest thing to do, you really shouldn't.

Thank you for those words.
Have you been taking meds for it?
If so I would appreciate some info about how it changed your daily life.
>>5996
I had similar problem untill I noticed that kindly telling people no with reasoning why gets rid of being drudge and others actually start to respect you.

 No.6051

>>5998

Generally the point of no return is after 25, but as of now, I'm 25 with no real career. It's more of a point of no return for my psyche. However, I keep on hearing other people graduate college at this time and start their career, so the pressure is lessened there.

>They lose on power with time and there will be new ones covering previous.

Focusing on past is the silliest thing to do, you really shouldn't.

I have recurring dreams about it. It's my main depressor honestly. I hope it'll eventually go away, but I'll always remember the first 25 years of my life, 1/3rd of my life, being miserable. I still have 2/3rds of my life at least.

>Have you been taking meds for it?

If so I would appreciate some info about how it changed your daily life.

Not at all. The tics really aren't noticeable anymore. I still make noticeable sounds, but only some people bring it up. If they do, I'll just explain to them I have Tourettes. Most people understand. It's generally understood that if you make fun of people who have a condition, you're a douchebag and hated. It's in the movies, at least.

 No.6052

>>6051
>I'll always remember the first 25 years of my life, 1/3rd of my life, being miserable
If you had a bad time growing up, it's a heavy burden for the rest of your life.

 No.6094

>>6052

I just realized something luckily. Of the 25 years of my life, till 18, I wasn't too stressed. From 20-25 I started failing classes. Five years isn't long at all. I think I can manage getting out of this mess and do well with my life.

I hated school, but it was nowhere near as bad as seeing people of my age range leave a wageslave job while I stay. Soon, I think I can get out myself. Good luck to me. I'm working hard on working + school.

 No.6096

>>6094
Could have been autistic burnout.

 No.6102

>>6096

That made me laugh, ngl. I don't have Autism, but I was overreacting. I was looking at my late 20s as an independent section of my life instead of a small section of my overall life. I've grown, and I hope to outgrow my current job. I might actually be fine since my father got into I.T. at 25 (except with a degree in comp sci). If I manage to get my foot in the door and graduate before 26, I'll be pretty happy.

My mood kinda fluctuates between intense worrying and these realizations.

 No.6104

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>>6102
>If I manage to get my foot in the door and graduate before 26
If you don't wanna feel lonely, I also kinda hope that for myself.

 No.6190

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I DIDN'T LEARN ANYTHING THIS YEAR AND ALL THE THINGS I DECIDED TO START LEARNING I ENDED UP DROPPING OUT OF THREE MONTHS LATER BECAUSE I COULDN'T UNDERSTAND HOW TO MOVE FORWARD
I'M A FUCKING JOKE OF A MAN AND WILL FOREVER STAY POOR BECAUSE OF IT

 No.6191

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>>6190
You need to go to sleep!

 No.6204

>>6190
uh oh, it looks like someone ate too much Halloween candy. I bet your mommy and daddy had a real hard time putting you to bed last night.

 No.6205

>>6190

I know how that feels, liz. I don't think I'll be going anywhere else soon. At least we can be poor together though.

 No.6227

File: 1604643002723.mp4 (711.84 KB, 1920x1080, me.mp4)

AAAAAAAAAAAH I HAVE HAD IT WITH THIS DUMB FUCKING ELECTION

 No.6228

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>>6227
I can't believe my banana republic had a better election than the leaders of the free world

 No.6243

>>6228
America has always been a corrupt place, being founded by a bunch of Freemasons and all. But now it's become very transparent how broken things are, which is good in a sense.

 No.6248

>>6243
Freemasons > Jews

 No.6249

>>6248
yes exactly, you know what's going on

 No.6267

>>6228
"It's the mystery of the droods, they all have an attitude."

 No.6268

File: 1605136884320.jpg (66.84 KB, 594x767, nasty.jpg)

>try to charge money to my prepaid debit card
>it's been a whole day and my money hasn't been deposited yet
>wanted to play Sakuna Of Rice and Ruin
>keyboard controls were an ungodly abomination and I'm too poor to buy a decent controller
>enrolled to college for a programming course since the ones I found online were absolute dogshit (not american so I don't have to worry about muh debt)
>they tell me I'm already enrolled in a virtual classroom but I can't for the love of god find it and I don't seem to be inscripted in anything according to my profile
>have to be asking to total strangers in the internet if they're inscripted to the very same course in hopes they give me the URL of the classroom
thank god there's drugs in this world

 No.6269

>>6268
Why would you post such a creepy image on a comfy board faggot.

 No.6270

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>>6269
Because that's how I feel, queer.

 No.6272

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>>6268
>>6270
Arigato for the nightmares :3

 No.6275

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>>6268
>they tell me I'm already enrolled in a virtual classroom but I can't for the love of god find it
Oh hello I had the same shit happen to me. Missed three weekends because of that.
Imagine that IT school which is in top 5 in the city has tons of outdated links on their website.
Thanks to that I was connecting to Skype virtual classes that nobody used.
Fortunately I made a smart decision of talking to some random guy in class and we exchanged contacts.

He told me that they're using MS Teams when I asked lately what's up.

Anyway check your school email or personal one for info.

 No.6287

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Don't you guys sometimes believe you're living in a nightmare, and everyone living close to you is exacerbating that nightmare and perpetuating it?

 No.6289

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>>6287
this week for sure. it definitely felt like the people around me were conspiring to stress me out

 No.6290

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>>6289
Not even like conspiring, it's just that their common behaviour is off, or wrong, not right, but they behave like that normally.
Like a dog that tears off a part of his skin, he's not harming you, but what he's doing is wrong and it gives the sensation of a nightmare where wrong is the norm, and illegal is legal, where red is considered blue and denying it brings a world of trouble.

 No.6291

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>>6290
Just think less, you silly.
You're overthinking stuff

 No.6293

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>>6291
maybe I should sleep better

 No.6295

>>6287
Yea its really jarring.
Weird to see how reactionary others you once thought normgroids turn into the very cancer you make fun of and laugh at online.
I honestly take it for granted that Im not mentally handicapped like these people are.
Truly peak clown existence.

 No.6321

File: 1605582285091.mp4 (3.4 MB, 500x282, my_hops slowed reverb.mp4)

>dark winter
more like CRINGE winter.
This year is ass and nothing happened.
Youd think warmies would learn by now not to trust the mediajew and not fall for imaginary hype.

 No.6325

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Yesterday I had a visit to neurologist specialised in tics.
Turned out that yet another psychiatrist gave me unnecessary jewpills so I'm off from them.
Good news is that I'm not sick but stressed by everything which resulted in dissociative movement disorder.
Soooo if I learn to chill out or just stress less then it will be gone.
Bad news is that I have to spend cash on therapy because it's getting worse and it looks like my self observation doesn't move forward. Sooo there goes my cash.

At least I'm slowly returning to my intelligence. I've never expected jewpills to make me that dumb. I couldn't remember where I left things that I had in hand half a minute ago and talked the same shit to the same certain family members while not remembering it up to 4 times.
BTW I had small doses (literally the smallest possible) which were "too low to be helpful", yet it fucked me over.

Fuken jeeeews

 No.6326

>>6325
cute pic
good job getting off the pill jew

 No.6329

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>local imageboard just closed down out of a sudden
Goddamnit, it was a shithole yes but it was very cathartic seeing it, also the paranormal section it had was fucking great. Lots of crazy wackos, stories and untapered knowledge.
I'll miss it man, God dang it.

 No.6336

>>6329
Which one? You're among friends here.

 No.6345

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>>6336
voxed.net, it was a shithole, but it was my shithole

 No.6346

>>6326
Thanks, so far I'm constantly angry and sad for no reason. It's so annoying

 No.6347

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Whenever I hear warmies say the phrase "live your best life" I get really mad for some reason. I just want to respond with a firm "fuck you".

 No.6348

I FUCKING HATE RETROARCH

 No.6349

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>>6347
Why? Are you not living your best life?

 No.6351

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>>6349
sure liz, everything is going exactly as planned

 No.6353

Wizchan is a mixed bag. Sometimes it's full of warmies, sometimes not.

 No.6354

>>6353
I can't even be bothered to look at the site anymore. That sites been dead to me for a long time now.

 No.6355

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helped my dad unload some gasoline
now I smell all like gas and ass

 No.6360

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So I'm moving out and tomorrow signing papers.
My Boss had connections with person renting a flat so it was cheaper since it has two rooms I asked a trustworthy guy that I know for 6 years (I wouldn't call him a friend).
That relation looked like this
>yo can help me with x
>sure
There never was a situation which would have negative effect on trust

Today that guy changed his mind and I have to pay the rent and flat deposit all by myself until I find some random to live with.
since obviously I don't have any other person that I talk with

The problem is that I only have a half of money for the upcoming payment (8 days if I remember correctly)

Which forces me to sell almost every belonging of mine.
I'm going to have nothing more than phone and clothes for few weeks.

No furniture is there nor stuff like plates.
If it wasn't bad enough I'm forced to move in and live there for like two weeks without stove and electricity

I CANNOT cancel signing the papers since renter already prepared the flat to look okayish.
On top of that he's the one who rents place for Boss' office.
If I did it would destroy the trust of those two people and worst case scenario he would charge more money from Boss out of anger or fire me just because.

Now I'm truly alone lizard when I can't rely even on family.

I'm not sad or angry, just surprised. Well at least there will be some semi-interesting blogposts from me.

 No.6361

>>6360
Couldn't you find a studio apartment or basement suite in your area on craigslist or something? You shouldn't have to sell all your belongings to get a months rent. And the roommate thing sounds like it could be a nightmare, I figured guys that post here would prefer to live alone.

 No.6362

>>6360
So you have to pawn your stuff. I foresee ramen noodles in your immediate future.

 No.6363

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Cont.
Just tried talking to my mother asking why she is angry.
Instead of answer curses were spelled and things that happened years ago were brought back.
I calmly asked why she always wanted to kick me out but now she doesn't when has less money, is it all about money?
More curses and shouts were spit at me.
It's kinda sad when there is no one at home that can talk like an adult.

The whole flat has stupid placement of things. Like super tiny shower room is inside one room and the toilet is outside of the flat, next to the front doors.
It's gonna be fucking hard to find someone else to live with.

This is not bery nice. Bury pink gril help

 No.6364

>>6361
I would prefer to live alone. The thing is that the whole offer was quite cheap when divided by two.
I can not quit since that could do some trouble since the Boss taken his time to get it so cheap and he is also renting office from that guy.
Studio wouldn't be cheaper than this offer and renting a single room could be a nightmare since there are other people.
>>6362
Unfortunately ramen noodles are not that cheap here

 No.6365

>>6364
>renting a single room could be a nightmare since there are other people

Other people outside of your place. Your studio apartment would have a lock on the door.

>ramen noodles are not that cheap


Do you live in Nunavut or something? Ramen is cheap everywhere.

 No.6367

>>6363
>is it all about money?
It might as well be.

 No.6368

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Nevermind, looks like I just made up the whole "I CANNOT cancel signing the papers".
I'm losing my sanity and the worst part is I'm being told about this from others and I can't see it.

>>6365
I'm not sure if I understand but there are no offers like that it's either entire flat or just a room with everything else shared.
>Ramen is cheap everywhere.
Never noticed it until now,I've seen only two Brands of ramen noodles and one is imported expensive hot stuff,weird ,weird.
>>6367
I guess it's just a combination of meternal (animalistic) instincts and money,nothing more than that.

 No.6369

>>6368
>I'm not sure if I understand

A studio apartment is just an apartment with a room and a bathroom, no bedroom. One might not be available in your area. My city is so damn expensive that they're the only places somewhat affordable for a guy making minimum age. And even then they rent for over $1000 a month.

 No.6375

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Is it just me or after corona stuff more cringe showed up?

I can't stand it.
ALL I want do to is to tell people to kill themselves.
It's kinda edgy but also cringe.
Oh NO

IT GOT ME

wanted to see how is it going on lizchan, left it like 3 years ago and oh my I regret it

 No.6376

I meant coming back to it. Oh and did lizadmin got rid of delete post option?

 No.6377

>>6376
Isn't the delete post option visible to you?

 No.6379

>>6377
Nvm, the fault was on my device. It works now

 No.6382

>>6375
>corona stuff more cringe

Ever since covid hit Italy it's been total cringe here. People seen the footage of hospitals in Italy and worked themselves into a hysteria, when later I found out that Italian hospitals always get oversaturated like that because of the high geriatric population.

First it was the idiotic lockdowns where a lot of the businesses I enjoy going to got shut down and everyone got to stay at home and not work except for me. And now that the stimulus payments have dried up it's the fucking maasks and social distancing rules. I could care less about holidays being cancelled and clubs being shuttered tbh.

 No.6391

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looking at the empty beer cans all around my place makes me feel self-conscious

 No.6413

Not even halfway through and I'm already sick of December. I just want this stressful consumerist month to end.

 No.6414

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I'm after payday and it turned out that it's less than was stated. It's even below the minimum wage.
I don't understand. Everything was done great and praised yet this happens.
Welp if the next one will be similar then new job must be found.
SHIEEET all my hype for this is gone.
>>6413
Retail?

 No.6415

>>6414
If you're asking if I work retail then no. I hate the gift giving aspect of the holiday. I don't know what to get anyone, I don't really like shopping, and I don't even like receiving gifts. People always get me things I don't want or need and it always results in more clutter around my place.

 No.6416

>>6415
It truly is better to give than to receive.

 No.6418

>>6416
I'd agree with that. I've never been comfortable with being given things by other people. I'd be happy if people just got me beer and lotto tickets for shitmas, things that I would actually enjoy getting and won't clutter my place up.

 No.6419

I feel like I'm going insane! I don't want to be on this planet anymore.

 No.6421

>>6419
Of course you'd feel that way when you don't shop at Waitrose.

 No.6422

>>6421
Why, does Waitrose not do the mask shit?

 No.6426

>>6422
It's a joke because it's higher up the price chain. I'm not even a bong.

 No.6450

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I fucking hate christmas.

 No.6451

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>>6450
same

 No.6452

>>6451
It's like the worst aspects of the people you hate increase exponentially this day and new years' eve. Fucking hate it, I wish I could just shut myself down in my room and don't have to interact with anybody, but that's an impossibility when you live with your parents

 No.6453

>>6452
I guess I have it easy compared to you.

 No.6454

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>everyone cleans stuff
>awkward sittings
>yummy food
>gifts

It's not so bad.

HOLY SHIT THAT JUST REMINDED ME
We didn't celebrate it like year ago. NOOOOOOO
Probably all those Lizzies are dead. RIP
me on the bottom right corner

 No.6455

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Cont. It's so sad.
It just reminded me how everything felt much better then.
Now there is just emptiness.

Fuck liz that left 2nd reincarnation unpaid even though we could donate and stated our will.
I still have no idea why he didn't do shit nor told us about it. BUT after some time posted on wizchad
>UHH I DIDN'T EXPECT TO PAY FOR HOSTING FOR LONGER TIME
Like okay but 3 lizards wanted to help AAAAAAAAAAA

 No.6456

>>6454
I can't stand family get-togethers. The only people in my family I find tolerable are my grandparents and it's because they're about as isolated and broken as me. Thank God this month is almost over.

>Probably all those Lizzies are dead


Not me (Homer in bed).

 No.6457

>>6454
Would you be surprised if I told you that I was three out of those images?

 No.6458

>>6457
You were only suppose to be in one. How can we ever have a nice lizchan group photo with cheaters like you?

 No.6461

>>6458
I have many clones

 No.6465

File: 1609209485240.jpg (33.54 KB, 480x480, Joker.jpg)

I've developed a bad habit of talking to myself, probably because of all the time spent alone. Most of the time it's just swearing in frustration. I probably seem crazy to the normies that catch me doing it.

 No.6466

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>>6465
>Damn that clown xD

Imo The most normal people talk to themselves almost always when focused/angry/annoyed.

So many do this, I don't think anybody will look at you differently, except me lmao

 No.6467

>>6466
>most normal people

I think I do it in excess, to the point where I might come across like a schizophrenic. I sometimes have to stop talking while in public and force myself to speak internally.

>except me lmao


er you motherfucker… bastard dur shithead… faggots…

 No.6468

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I always do things in last moments.
Did the same with whole studying.
Today I understood that it's time to actually do something.
Checks 3 sites of university where all the info should be stored.
>everything
>is
>E M P T Y
>LITERALLY NOTHING

Wow great so the whole education system is in the middle ages. If you didn't pay attention on web classes then you know nothing. It's not even recorded or something.
I was so sure that there will be at least some info when to pass exams and stuff that I didn't bother checking. Since it was obvious to me.

IT school so they will for sure make use of the Internet. Well nope. Even my previous shitty schools had online book with all the necessary info.
I have no idea for what I was paying but gotta quit this shit

Hmmm so what do I do now to not work for the lowest wage till I die?

I have no idea, so lost. I don't want to be an adult, my vision is being crushed by retarded reality.
Damn, I'm manbaby after all with no skills nor plans for the future.

>>6467
>probably because of all the time spent alone.
I don't think it works like that.
I'm no expert but I think you just got used to talking out loud, gotta break the habit.
Easiest solution is ball gag. Harder - therapy idk

 No.6469

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getting really sick of dishonest people, especially the types looking just to backstab for fun or change the narrative to make you believe for a second they did nothing wrong

and IM suppose to be more trusting of people? and whats worse is if i trust one side, the other will get upset and have a go at me. fucking animals all of them

 No.6471

>>6468
>Hmmm so what do I do now to not work for the lowest wage till I die?

Normies get ahead in the workplace largely by networking and having confidence. Believe me, I've seen them bullshit their way into positions a thousand times. You'd need to have some awesome skills to make up for your lack of these attributes and even then your expected to have some social skills.

You might have to come to terms with the fact that you're not a high valued human. I did.

 No.6472

>>6471
>You might have to come to terms with the fact that you're not a high valued human.
Oh that explains much to me.
I mixed up being valuable person with valuable human. Thank you for that reality check.
I guess I will just stick to being no one. Forcing myself to fake Chad-like behaviour maybe could make my situation better although I would suffer every second of it.

Anyway how did you bare with that fact? Tried to fight it or just gave up?

 No.6473

>>6472
>how did you bare with that fact?

I developed low self esteem that bears down on me everyday.

>Tried to fight it or just gave up?


ha I'm probably the worst person to give life advice. I dropped out of a bunch of things. High school, college, the military. If you think you can handle the pressure of dealing with various responsibilities maybe try to advance a little in life, but if you get overwhelmed easily people need to learn to meet you where you're at.

 No.6504

This weekend gonna be great just slept 11 hours so I will have plenty of energy
>wakes up
>urinary tract infection
>PP HURTS SO HARD

 No.6506

>>6504
It could always be worse. At least your tract infection will probably go away after some antibiotics.

A lot of older guys get constipation all the time and have to lug around bowels full of feces that won't come out. Imagine trying to enjoy a nice meal when you haven't taking a shit for three days.

 No.6507

>>6506
>constipation
Just eat mung bean sprouts.

 No.6508

File: 1610471193063.jpg (143.67 KB, 900x594, dump.jpg)

>>6507
I've been eating nothing but bean sprouts for a week and I still can't take a dump!

 No.6513

>>6508
Try douche maybe

 No.6514

>>6513
heh I think you mean an enema

 No.6528

File: 1610935839772.jpg (164.02 KB, 1100x684, 1597693671663-pol.jpg)

I have something in my skin in my left leg right next to my crotch. It's red and it burns and it feels as my skin is about to fall off.
My whole body is falling apart

 No.6529

>>6528
sounds like you may need to see a dermatologist my lizard

 No.6546

File: 1611441609044.jpg (60.1 KB, 512x288, static.jpg)

I've been having such a hard time remembering things lately, every couple of minutes I have a brain fart. I feel like an old man.

 No.6547

>>6546
Same here but mine is from drug abuse when I was a dumb teenager what's yours from anon?

 No.6548

>>6546
I have similar problem but it's caused by me going on autopilot.
Rather shitty autopilot.
In that state I'm not focused at all and tend to turn off all the logical thinking resulting in many mistakes.
I may be turning into warmie flesh running purely on instincts lol
My theory says that this happens from too much stimuli.
>>6547
What drugs and how often?
I've been using dxm once a month at max as teen and I think it had no negative impact on me except my social phobia getting worse for like a week or so

 No.6549

>>6547
>drug abuse when I was a dumb teenager

Exactly the same with me probably. I developed quite the drug habit when I was a teenager. I'm afraid that by the time I'm in my 40s I'm gonna be a drooling burnout.

 No.6550

>>6548
It was DXM abuse for me but I did it way more often and didn't really care if it was triple C's or not which also fucked with my memory. Glad it didn't fuck with you as bad as me anon.
>>6549
Same here that is also my fear.

 No.6551

>>6550
>dxm
It's the worst mainstream drug to take frequently especially at young age.
Were you aware of that? Or just didn't bother to study the substance.

I'm sure that if I didn't look things up it would end in taking it more often.

My pseudo suicide attempt included 1275mg of it.
Fortunately for me, it had no negative effects.

 No.6555

>>6551
>My pseudo suicide attempt included 1275mg of it.

Wow, and was that in purple drank or gel caps? Correct me if I'm wrong but that must of been like 5 bottles of syrup. I hope your internal organs are ok.

 No.6557

File: 1612121626407.jpg (47.38 KB, 654x430, sleep.jpg)

>excited about days off during weekday wage drudgery
>spend all weekend sleeping

every weekend I'm like this. I haven't even finished getting my grocery shopping done yet

 No.6558

>>6555
2 x 300mg gelcaps + 300 syrup + and some round tablets

Like year after this I had every organ checked and they scored better than average. So it didn't affect me in any way.

 No.6559

>>6558
That must of been a pretty big handful of gelcaps, you must of swallowed like 30 of them. You would probably need to take way more to overdose. It sounds like you took enough for a long and heavy trip, I hope you enjoyed it.

 No.6560

Some old women gave me shit today for not wearing a mask. I wanted to snap at her but I knew everyone around would all jump to her defence. Why can't people just mind their own fucking business?

 No.6561

File: 1612333035902.jpg (54.79 KB, 640x640, ly1nh21vfw851.jpg)

>>6560
Oh please not this topic again.

 No.6562

>>6561
we're all having to deal with this mask shit right now. this is the vent thread you know

 No.6564

File: 1612562151100.jpg (119.68 KB, 720x754, life_gamer.jpg)

>spend all day playing video games
>still suck at them

it feels like I'm wasting my life away

 No.6565

>>6564
>still suck at them
Are you actually playing to get better or just a matter of habit/addiction?
There is a huge difference between those two even if you don't notice it yourself, speaking from experience.
It's all about thinking through every move and learning from mistakes instead of running on autopilot.

>it feels like I'm wasting my life away

It is a waste if you see it as one.

I noticed that my life will be a waste whatever I do since some personal problems just can not be solved.
So I do not feel bad about wasting time because it was "kinda predefined" from the start.
I'm free to do anything I want

 No.6566

>>6565
>playing to get better or just a matter of habit/addiction

More of the latter than the former truthfully. I'm trying to use save states less so I can get better at games but I still play badly. I have poor concentration so my mind is always wandering off the game, leading to frequent deaths.

>personal problems just can not be solved


I guess that's true for me too.

 No.6571

>>6564
You *are* wasting your life away with video games and that is a fact. There is nothing transferable to other parts of your life that you can obtain from video games. People attacked Joe Rogan when he mentioned this because he made a stupid comparison with judo where with judo you can eventually open a dojo or whatever. It's stupid, as sports are just as equally as non-transferable as video games. Unless you devote your entire life to a video game or sport you will not get anywhere with it but even if you do then it comes maintaining your high ranking which you will not be able to do indefinitely.

There are two ways you can succeed in life: become one of the best in something that already exists, or invent something new and become successful simply because you were the first person to invent it. As it turns out former is much harder than the latter and with diminished returns. There is a reason why businesses usually look for NEW business opportunities rather than look at who they can compete with. Of course, you can be mediocre at something that already exists (which is where most of us are), or invent something that nobody gives a shit.

There are also many ways to fail at life as well which is get addicted to drugs, get arrested, fall extremely ill etc. video games are usually not going to destroy your life the way many other things would but it would not bring anything to your life either, that is unless you declare your life *is* about playing video games. Which is dangerous because it's not sustainable. You will eventually starve or fall I'll and video games are not going to help you there. I guess at least nowadays there are ways to make your life worth with video games such as streaming (not getting into the fact watchers are themselves wasting their life) if you truly want to make your life revolve around nothing but video games. It's just that video games are in general a poor thing to devote your life to, not that you should never play vidya, sports or read books etc. just because they are dead ends, because devoting your life to being productive 24/7 is going to devoid your life of any enjoyment and in and of itself is a wasted life.

I talk about this as someone who devoted his twenties to giggling at stupid shit on the internet every day for 16-17h and someone who thought a lot about wasting his life. I have a degree (a Ph.D) at giggling at stupid shit. I don't know how to transfer my skill of giggling on stupid shit. Starting a meme channel sounds like a stupid idea to me even though it's probably the only thing that can make these years spent worth. So for all intents and purposes, my life is wasted for a little bit of gratification occurring intermittently and I imagine video games are the same way.

 No.6572

>>6571
>There are two ways you can succeed in life

That all sounds very hard. I don't think I can monetize anything I'm good at. I'm just gonna lay down and rot.

 No.6574

Huh I've got banned on my pc for spam but never did anything that broke the rules what.
Lizmods?

 No.6576

>>6574
Maybe your IP accidentally matched somebody else's who was spamming?

 No.6599

File: 1613178232049.jpg (21.35 KB, 640x426, mess.jpg)

My dream is to be retired by 40. If I can't accomplish this I think I'll go insane.

 No.6600

>>6599
How old are you now, liz?
How much more to go?

 No.6601

>>6600
early 30s. if I can pay some things off and then work for a few more years I might just be able to pull it off

 No.6611

obligations and wage slavery have gotten me so worn and stressed out these past couple of days, it feels like a steam roller drove over top of me

 No.6612

I apparently have seven months to gtfo of my parent's home. They might be moving or something. I have a sister who I can live with for as little as 300 a month. It's a steal and might secure my life for a little longer. Otherwise, I'm going to have to die or go homeless. I would rather choose the former.

 No.6613

>>6612
>7 months
That's a lot of time to prepare for this. You got this liz

 No.6614

>>6613
if he's anything like me he'll procrastinate for the next six months, playing video games and trying not to think about the inevitable

 No.6631

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Does anyone here ever feel so stressed out that it feels like their head is going to explode?

 No.6632

>>6631
>head is going to explode
Hahaha no,
rather make my head explode

 No.6633

>>6614

God this hits so true. Luckily my sister is a liar and it's actually seven years. I hope I don't screw up.

 No.6635

>>6633
>don't screw up

yes exactly, try be as low profile as the furniture so when they finally move they'll take you with them

 No.6666

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Okay I'm done with loud normal faggot neighbours

It's about time I get ripped and smash their fucking skulls.

My whole body hurts from a quick workout.
Although one day it will be capable of making destruction and bringing fear into dumb eyes of brainlets.

 No.6668

>>6666
>loud normies have the wrath of satan upon them

I wouldn't want to be them right now.

 No.6669

>>6666
Calm down satan.

 No.6675

File: 1616805278501.jpg (157.3 KB, 1280x720, snake_eats_lizard.jpg)

Another week of things totally not going my way. Can't a liz ever catch a break?

 No.6676

>>6675
Tell us what happened now, liz.

 No.6677

>>6676
Just a deal that I was planning to make fell through. It might still happen but I was hoping to get it done with this week. Nothing can ever go smoothly for me, everything needs to be more complicated than it has to be.

 No.6683

>>6051
I've accepted that it will never get better. All I can do is cope 'til I rope or die of something else. SSRIs have helped me suppress the worst of my depression though.

 No.6708

File: 1617824666312.jpg (49.35 KB, 720x480, why.jpg)

>mall food court closed

Getting a big container of mall chinks is one of the few things in life that gave me pleasure and they took it away from me. Will the covid hysteria ever end?

 No.6709

>>6708

what is a wall chink? I would have thought it to be some kind of slur against Asians if you hadn't mentioned a container of them.

 No.6716

>>6709
>what is a wall chink?

the Chinaman food at the mall. think panda express and manchu wok

>thought it to be some kind of slur against Asians


it kind of was

 No.6718

Today I have found relief in knowing that if my life gets any worse I can just end it all. I have ideas of going into the state mountains and throwing myself off it. I fear the dirt would be too soft though. Also I might hit a tree. Pain isn't a good idea.

I don't know if there are buildings I could throw myself off and what better way to die than around nature? That would be my wish. If anyone has any ideas just say.

 No.6719

>>6718
You gotta stay with us liz. We need you here.

 No.6720

>>6708
Say Chinese takeout or Americanized Chinese food like a civil liz. Anyways where I live malls have open and full of maskless people for months now.

 No.6722

>>6720
>Chinese takeout or Americanized Chinese food

Chinaman takeou… no, let me try again. Americanized chink foo… damn. Why can't I cease my anti-Asian hatred? I must of been more influenced by Trump's racist and hateful rhetoric than I realized.

 No.6732

>>6722
Come on, man. You can die anytime. There's no need to hold onto hate unless you're charging them on the battlefields of WW3.

 No.6733

>>6732
come on man, it's fun and cool to say racist things. you should give it a try yourself sometime

 No.6736

>>6051
>Generally the point of no return is after 25, but as of now, I'm 25 with no real career. It's more of a point of no return for my psyche. However, I keep on hearing other people graduate college at this time and start their career, so the pressure is lessened there.
I'm already past that point, but just now starting college. If I still can't find a job anywhere even after having a bachelors degree in accounting, I'll resign myself to the life of a beggar and cherish whatever money comes my way. Hey, at least then I can say I tried.

 No.6737

>>6736
You would almost be lucky if a war broke out with China now because it would disrupt normal ages for milestones.

 No.6738

File: 1618334614456.jpg (11.85 KB, 320x180, come_on_man.jpg)

>>6736
>bachelors degree in accounting
>I'll resign myself to the life of a beggar

oh so if you can't be a hot shot accountant you'll just give up? wouldn't want to be a janitor or a garbage man or anything like that, that would be beneath you

 No.6739

>>6738
Lmao imagine actually unironically being a janny. Yes that is beneath me.

 No.6740

>>6738
>lizzie wants to work in an office building
>applies to be a janitor there
>hiring manager looks over his resume
>sees that he has an accounting degree
>laughs
>throws it in the trash
This is actually what will happen

 No.6741

>>6738
>>6740
Are you saying accounting is bad?
Why is accounting a bad degree?
Every single business needs accountants so I don't understand how liz can possibly become unemployed after getting his accounting degree.

 No.6742

>>6741
>saying accounting is bad?

It's a job that involves working in a office and interacting with people all day, how can it not be awful? Trueliz jobs are low paying and out of the public spotlight. Like a ditch digger or a night watchman.

>how liz can possibly become unemployed


"liz isn't coming with us to the bar after work, yeah, let's not renew that weirdo's contract"

 No.6743

>>6742
>Trueliz jobs are low paying and out of the public spotlight.
Sadly this is true. Can't even make decent money without having to deal with people. Even working in IT, you have to talk with other people constantly. Shit is fucked.

 No.6745

>>6739
I'm glad somebody around here has some self-respect.
>>6742
Let's not do the whole truliz thing. Being a Big 5 accountant is like *the* boring white collar salaried position. Nothing wrong with being a bean counter if you're not trying to excite anyone.
>>6743
Guess what: you are a person too and it is just as singularly unpleasant to deal with you as it is for you to deal with them.

 No.6746

File: 1618507725734.jpeg (279.19 KB, 2000x1333, office.jpeg)

>>6745
>Let's not do the whole truliz thing.

But how will we know who's the most pure among us?

>Nothing wrong with being a bean counter


It's not the work so much as the office setting. Most offices don't even seem to have closed cubicles these days, they're these open office nightmares. I'd probably be driven to suicide if I had to work in an environment like this.

Not to criticize guys who work in these places too much. We all have to eat shit in life. I'm just saying there could be better jobs out there for someone who doesn't like dealing with people.

 No.6756

I'm done with my second cat.
From time to time pees on my pillows. It happened like once every month.
Didn't scold her or anything.
Thought I was not giving her enough attention or something.

Lately it was more frequent.
Like 5 days in a row. Yesterday two pillows. Today my blanket,bed and pillow.
I was petting her often,played kindly even more because I thought it's my own fault. Vet checked her and everything was fine. Litter box is clean lol

At this point we're thinking about sending her free at countryside and brining food every weekend.



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