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Remember Lizzies it's bad to hold negative emotions since they build up.


Today I was bullied by vocal tics.
In those few past days I had like few of them unlike motor ones.
I'm really starting to get worried since making weird noises is fucked up

I've found some worrying info.
>Chronic motor tic disorder is a condition that involves brief, uncontrollable, spasm-like movements or vocal outbursts (otherwise called phonic tics), but not both. If both a physical tic and vocal outburst are present, the condition is known as Tourette syndrome.

I really hope it's not tourette. Already have social phobia/anxiety and it would be too much for me to handle.
On top of that meds to make the symptoms more bearable would turn me into zombie. Ahhhh fuuuuck
I'm wondering if I should book a visit to psychiatrist asap or just wait a little longer because I have them for 9 days only.
I wouldn't care if it was mild but my arms are literally sore and it's getting worse.


Thank you. I've felt something bad right now. I was looking at the wikipedia page for pettanko, https://es.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pettanko and it mentioned Tainaka Ritsu, so I try to look up a picture of her, find the K-ON! wiki, and it shows her birthdate as August 21, 1991. Jesus hell this makes me feel old. K-ON came on during 2009. She'd be 29 by now. She's older than me by 4 years, so I'd be a freshman when she was in her senior year. It's all just so jarring I guess. It's so weird to see someone older than you in high school. I don't know if I could watch the anime anymore.

My highschool days weren't great. My life right now is pretty bad too. It's not horrible, but I'm not in a good place now and I'm breaching the point of no return. Even if I recover, I'm sure the memories of inadaquacy will haunt me for the rest of my life. I probably wouldn't feel so bad if I were in a better position I guess. I hope to get better soon.


I have tourettes. The vocal tics aren't as bad as the motor ticks. I used to put my hands above my head grasp my hands together, and do a weird moan when I was in elementary school. It was bad and loud. I didn't really get teased for it thankfully. My vocal ticks are now just throat noises and no motor ticks. I'm very glad for that. If anyone makes fun of you, you can always shame them for making fun of someone whose brain is different from them and shame them for someone else's disabilities. Never stop thinking that you're not to blame here. Once you stop thinking that, the ticks (and maybe other people) start to get ahold of you. I refuse to take blame and feel no shame. If it's tourettes, do the same.


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I hate being forced into situations or organizations I neveer asked to be apart of. The worst part for me is being told to be grateful for it and say thank you as im kicked around by others so they can feel good about themselves.




>breaching the point of no return.
What do you mean by that?
>memories of inadaquacy will haunt me for the rest of my life.
They lose on power with time and there will be new ones covering previous.
Focusing on past is the silliest thing to do, you really shouldn't.

Thank you for those words.
Have you been taking meds for it?
If so I would appreciate some info about how it changed your daily life.
I had similar problem untill I noticed that kindly telling people no with reasoning why gets rid of being drudge and others actually start to respect you.



Generally the point of no return is after 25, but as of now, I'm 25 with no real career. It's more of a point of no return for my psyche. However, I keep on hearing other people graduate college at this time and start their career, so the pressure is lessened there.

>They lose on power with time and there will be new ones covering previous.

Focusing on past is the silliest thing to do, you really shouldn't.

I have recurring dreams about it. It's my main depressor honestly. I hope it'll eventually go away, but I'll always remember the first 25 years of my life, 1/3rd of my life, being miserable. I still have 2/3rds of my life at least.

>Have you been taking meds for it?

If so I would appreciate some info about how it changed your daily life.

Not at all. The tics really aren't noticeable anymore. I still make noticeable sounds, but only some people bring it up. If they do, I'll just explain to them I have Tourettes. Most people understand. It's generally understood that if you make fun of people who have a condition, you're a douchebag and hated. It's in the movies, at least.


>I'll always remember the first 25 years of my life, 1/3rd of my life, being miserable
If you had a bad time growing up, it's a heavy burden for the rest of your life.



I just realized something luckily. Of the 25 years of my life, till 18, I wasn't too stressed. From 20-25 I started failing classes. Five years isn't long at all. I think I can manage getting out of this mess and do well with my life.

I hated school, but it was nowhere near as bad as seeing people of my age range leave a wageslave job while I stay. Soon, I think I can get out myself. Good luck to me. I'm working hard on working + school.


Could have been autistic burnout.



That made me laugh, ngl. I don't have Autism, but I was overreacting. I was looking at my late 20s as an independent section of my life instead of a small section of my overall life. I've grown, and I hope to outgrow my current job. I might actually be fine since my father got into I.T. at 25 (except with a degree in comp sci). If I manage to get my foot in the door and graduate before 26, I'll be pretty happy.

My mood kinda fluctuates between intense worrying and these realizations.


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>If I manage to get my foot in the door and graduate before 26
If you don't wanna feel lonely, I also kinda hope that for myself.


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You need to go to sleep!


uh oh, it looks like someone ate too much Halloween candy. I bet your mommy and daddy had a real hard time putting you to bed last night.



I know how that feels, liz. I don't think I'll be going anywhere else soon. At least we can be poor together though.


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I can't believe my banana republic had a better election than the leaders of the free world


America has always been a corrupt place, being founded by a bunch of Freemasons and all. But now it's become very transparent how broken things are, which is good in a sense.


Freemasons > Jews


yes exactly, you know what's going on


"It's the mystery of the droods, they all have an attitude."


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>try to charge money to my prepaid debit card
>it's been a whole day and my money hasn't been deposited yet
>wanted to play Sakuna Of Rice and Ruin
>keyboard controls were an ungodly abomination and I'm too poor to buy a decent controller
>enrolled to college for a programming course since the ones I found online were absolute dogshit (not american so I don't have to worry about muh debt)
>they tell me I'm already enrolled in a virtual classroom but I can't for the love of god find it and I don't seem to be inscripted in anything according to my profile
>have to be asking to total strangers in the internet if they're inscripted to the very same course in hopes they give me the URL of the classroom
thank god there's drugs in this world


Why would you post such a creepy image on a comfy board faggot.


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Because that's how I feel, queer.


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Arigato for the nightmares :3


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>they tell me I'm already enrolled in a virtual classroom but I can't for the love of god find it
Oh hello I had the same shit happen to me. Missed three weekends because of that.
Imagine that IT school which is in top 5 in the city has tons of outdated links on their website.
Thanks to that I was connecting to Skype virtual classes that nobody used.
Fortunately I made a smart decision of talking to some random guy in class and we exchanged contacts.

He told me that they're using MS Teams when I asked lately what's up.

Anyway check your school email or personal one for info.


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Don't you guys sometimes believe you're living in a nightmare, and everyone living close to you is exacerbating that nightmare and perpetuating it?


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this week for sure. it definitely felt like the people around me were conspiring to stress me out


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Not even like conspiring, it's just that their common behaviour is off, or wrong, not right, but they behave like that normally.
Like a dog that tears off a part of his skin, he's not harming you, but what he's doing is wrong and it gives the sensation of a nightmare where wrong is the norm, and illegal is legal, where red is considered blue and denying it brings a world of trouble.


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Just think less, you silly.
You're overthinking stuff


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maybe I should sleep better


Yea its really jarring.
Weird to see how reactionary others you once thought normgroids turn into the very cancer you make fun of and laugh at online.
I honestly take it for granted that Im not mentally handicapped like these people are.
Truly peak clown existence.


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>dark winter
more like CRINGE winter.
This year is ass and nothing happened.
Youd think warmies would learn by now not to trust the mediajew and not fall for imaginary hype.


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Yesterday I had a visit to neurologist specialised in tics.
Turned out that yet another psychiatrist gave me unnecessary jewpills so I'm off from them.
Good news is that I'm not sick but stressed by everything which resulted in dissociative movement disorder.
Soooo if I learn to chill out or just stress less then it will be gone.
Bad news is that I have to spend cash on therapy because it's getting worse and it looks like my self observation doesn't move forward. Sooo there goes my cash.

At least I'm slowly returning to my intelligence. I've never expected jewpills to make me that dumb. I couldn't remember where I left things that I had in hand half a minute ago and talked the same shit to the same certain family members while not remembering it up to 4 times.
BTW I had small doses (literally the smallest possible) which were "too low to be helpful", yet it fucked me over.

Fuken jeeeews


cute pic
good job getting off the pill jew


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>local imageboard just closed down out of a sudden
Goddamnit, it was a shithole yes but it was very cathartic seeing it, also the paranormal section it had was fucking great. Lots of crazy wackos, stories and untapered knowledge.
I'll miss it man, God dang it.


Which one? You're among friends here.


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voxed.net, it was a shithole, but it was my shithole


Thanks, so far I'm constantly angry and sad for no reason. It's so annoying


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Whenever I hear warmies say the phrase "live your best life" I get really mad for some reason. I just want to respond with a firm "fuck you".




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Why? Are you not living your best life?


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sure liz, everything is going exactly as planned


Wizchan is a mixed bag. Sometimes it's full of warmies, sometimes not.


I can't even be bothered to look at the site anymore. That sites been dead to me for a long time now.


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helped my dad unload some gasoline
now I smell all like gas and ass


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So I'm moving out and tomorrow signing papers.
My Boss had connections with person renting a flat so it was cheaper since it has two rooms I asked a trustworthy guy that I know for 6 years (I wouldn't call him a friend).
That relation looked like this
>yo can help me with x
There never was a situation which would have negative effect on trust

Today that guy changed his mind and I have to pay the rent and flat deposit all by myself until I find some random to live with.
since obviously I don't have any other person that I talk with

The problem is that I only have a half of money for the upcoming payment (8 days if I remember correctly)

Which forces me to sell almost every belonging of mine.
I'm going to have nothing more than phone and clothes for few weeks.

No furniture is there nor stuff like plates.
If it wasn't bad enough I'm forced to move in and live there for like two weeks without stove and electricity

I CANNOT cancel signing the papers since renter already prepared the flat to look okayish.
On top of that he's the one who rents place for Boss' office.
If I did it would destroy the trust of those two people and worst case scenario he would charge more money from Boss out of anger or fire me just because.

Now I'm truly alone lizard when I can't rely even on family.

I'm not sad or angry, just surprised. Well at least there will be some semi-interesting blogposts from me.


Couldn't you find a studio apartment or basement suite in your area on craigslist or something? You shouldn't have to sell all your belongings to get a months rent. And the roommate thing sounds like it could be a nightmare, I figured guys that post here would prefer to live alone.


So you have to pawn your stuff. I foresee ramen noodles in your immediate future.


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Just tried talking to my mother asking why she is angry.
Instead of answer curses were spelled and things that happened years ago were brought back.
I calmly asked why she always wanted to kick me out but now she doesn't when has less money, is it all about money?
More curses and shouts were spit at me.
It's kinda sad when there is no one at home that can talk like an adult.

The whole flat has stupid placement of things. Like super tiny shower room is inside one room and the toilet is outside of the flat, next to the front doors.
It's gonna be fucking hard to find someone else to live with.

This is not bery nice. Bury pink gril help


I would prefer to live alone. The thing is that the whole offer was quite cheap when divided by two.
I can not quit since that could do some trouble since the Boss taken his time to get it so cheap and he is also renting office from that guy.
Studio wouldn't be cheaper than this offer and renting a single room could be a nightmare since there are other people.
Unfortunately ramen noodles are not that cheap here


>renting a single room could be a nightmare since there are other people

Other people outside of your place. Your studio apartment would have a lock on the door.

>ramen noodles are not that cheap

Do you live in Nunavut or something? Ramen is cheap everywhere.


>is it all about money?
It might as well be.


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Nevermind, looks like I just made up the whole "I CANNOT cancel signing the papers".
I'm losing my sanity and the worst part is I'm being told about this from others and I can't see it.

I'm not sure if I understand but there are no offers like that it's either entire flat or just a room with everything else shared.
>Ramen is cheap everywhere.
Never noticed it until now,I've seen only two Brands of ramen noodles and one is imported expensive hot stuff,weird ,weird.
I guess it's just a combination of meternal (animalistic) instincts and money,nothing more than that.


>I'm not sure if I understand

A studio apartment is just an apartment with a room and a bathroom, no bedroom. One might not be available in your area. My city is so damn expensive that they're the only places somewhat affordable for a guy making minimum age. And even then they rent for over $1000 a month.


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Is it just me or after corona stuff more cringe showed up?

I can't stand it.
ALL I want do to is to tell people to kill themselves.
It's kinda edgy but also cringe.


wanted to see how is it going on lizchan, left it like 3 years ago and oh my I regret it


I meant coming back to it. Oh and did lizadmin got rid of delete post option?


Isn't the delete post option visible to you?


Nvm, the fault was on my device. It works now


>corona stuff more cringe

Ever since covid hit Italy it's been total cringe here. People seen the footage of hospitals in Italy and worked themselves into a hysteria, when later I found out that Italian hospitals always get oversaturated like that because of the high geriatric population.

First it was the idiotic lockdowns where a lot of the businesses I enjoy going to got shut down and everyone got to stay at home and not work except for me. And now that the stimulus payments have dried up it's the fucking maasks and social distancing rules. I could care less about holidays being cancelled and clubs being shuttered tbh.


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looking at the empty beer cans all around my place makes me feel self-conscious


Not even halfway through and I'm already sick of December. I just want this stressful consumerist month to end.


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I'm after payday and it turned out that it's less than was stated. It's even below the minimum wage.
I don't understand. Everything was done great and praised yet this happens.
Welp if the next one will be similar then new job must be found.
SHIEEET all my hype for this is gone.


If you're asking if I work retail then no. I hate the gift giving aspect of the holiday. I don't know what to get anyone, I don't really like shopping, and I don't even like receiving gifts. People always get me things I don't want or need and it always results in more clutter around my place.


It truly is better to give than to receive.


I'd agree with that. I've never been comfortable with being given things by other people. I'd be happy if people just got me beer and lotto tickets for shitmas, things that I would actually enjoy getting and won't clutter my place up.


I feel like I'm going insane! I don't want to be on this planet anymore.


Of course you'd feel that way when you don't shop at Waitrose.


Why, does Waitrose not do the mask shit?


It's a joke because it's higher up the price chain. I'm not even a bong.


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I fucking hate christmas.


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It's like the worst aspects of the people you hate increase exponentially this day and new years' eve. Fucking hate it, I wish I could just shut myself down in my room and don't have to interact with anybody, but that's an impossibility when you live with your parents


I guess I have it easy compared to you.


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>everyone cleans stuff
>awkward sittings
>yummy food

It's not so bad.

We didn't celebrate it like year ago. NOOOOOOO
Probably all those Lizzies are dead. RIP
me on the bottom right corner


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Cont. It's so sad.
It just reminded me how everything felt much better then.
Now there is just emptiness.

Fuck liz that left 2nd reincarnation unpaid even though we could donate and stated our will.
I still have no idea why he didn't do shit nor told us about it. BUT after some time posted on wizchad
Like okay but 3 lizards wanted to help AAAAAAAAAAA


I can't stand family get-togethers. The only people in my family I find tolerable are my grandparents and it's because they're about as isolated and broken as me. Thank God this month is almost over.

>Probably all those Lizzies are dead

Not me (Homer in bed).


Would you be surprised if I told you that I was three out of those images?


You were only suppose to be in one. How can we ever have a nice lizchan group photo with cheaters like you?


I have many clones


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I've developed a bad habit of talking to myself, probably because of all the time spent alone. Most of the time it's just swearing in frustration. I probably seem crazy to the normies that catch me doing it.


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>Damn that clown xD

Imo The most normal people talk to themselves almost always when focused/angry/annoyed.

So many do this, I don't think anybody will look at you differently, except me lmao


>most normal people

I think I do it in excess, to the point where I might come across like a schizophrenic. I sometimes have to stop talking while in public and force myself to speak internally.

>except me lmao

er you motherfucker… bastard dur shithead… faggots…


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I always do things in last moments.
Did the same with whole studying.
Today I understood that it's time to actually do something.
Checks 3 sites of university where all the info should be stored.
>E M P T Y

Wow great so the whole education system is in the middle ages. If you didn't pay attention on web classes then you know nothing. It's not even recorded or something.
I was so sure that there will be at least some info when to pass exams and stuff that I didn't bother checking. Since it was obvious to me.

IT school so they will for sure make use of the Internet. Well nope. Even my previous shitty schools had online book with all the necessary info.
I have no idea for what I was paying but gotta quit this shit

Hmmm so what do I do now to not work for the lowest wage till I die?

I have no idea, so lost. I don't want to be an adult, my vision is being crushed by retarded reality.
Damn, I'm manbaby after all with no skills nor plans for the future.

>probably because of all the time spent alone.
I don't think it works like that.
I'm no expert but I think you just got used to talking out loud, gotta break the habit.
Easiest solution is ball gag. Harder - therapy idk


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getting really sick of dishonest people, especially the types looking just to backstab for fun or change the narrative to make you believe for a second they did nothing wrong

and IM suppose to be more trusting of people? and whats worse is if i trust one side, the other will get upset and have a go at me. fucking animals all of them


>Hmmm so what do I do now to not work for the lowest wage till I die?

Normies get ahead in the workplace largely by networking and having confidence. Believe me, I've seen them bullshit their way into positions a thousand times. You'd need to have some awesome skills to make up for your lack of these attributes and even then your expected to have some social skills.

You might have to come to terms with the fact that you're not a high valued human. I did.


>You might have to come to terms with the fact that you're not a high valued human.
Oh that explains much to me.
I mixed up being valuable person with valuable human. Thank you for that reality check.
I guess I will just stick to being no one. Forcing myself to fake Chad-like behaviour maybe could make my situation better although I would suffer every second of it.

Anyway how did you bare with that fact? Tried to fight it or just gave up?


>how did you bare with that fact?

I developed low self esteem that bears down on me everyday.

>Tried to fight it or just gave up?

ha I'm probably the worst person to give life advice. I dropped out of a bunch of things. High school, college, the military. If you think you can handle the pressure of dealing with various responsibilities maybe try to advance a little in life, but if you get overwhelmed easily people need to learn to meet you where you're at.


This weekend gonna be great just slept 11 hours so I will have plenty of energy
>wakes up
>urinary tract infection


It could always be worse. At least your tract infection will probably go away after some antibiotics.

A lot of older guys get constipation all the time and have to lug around bowels full of feces that won't come out. Imagine trying to enjoy a nice meal when you haven't taking a shit for three days.


Just eat mung bean sprouts.


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I've been eating nothing but bean sprouts for a week and I still can't take a dump!


Try douche maybe


heh I think you mean an enema


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I have something in my skin in my left leg right next to my crotch. It's red and it burns and it feels as my skin is about to fall off.
My whole body is falling apart


sounds like you may need to see a dermatologist my lizard


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I've been having such a hard time remembering things lately, every couple of minutes I have a brain fart. I feel like an old man.

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